Stay strong, Be strong.

Today is the 1st day of work after new year for most people. It's a busy day answering telephones from suppliers today. My mood? Still very good, and it's slightly better than yesterday =)

Chatted with some of them. It gave me some insight and encouragement. WC say nv know im that tough, and that i should keep it up. HG say think positive, release tension, life can still go on. (The planet still turns no matter what happens??)

Think about it.... aren't v supposed to stand up from where we fall instead of sitting there feeling so sad about the consequences after we fall.

I remember what Ms F said.... If you think it positively, it will happen positively. You just have to believe in yourself. I must thank Joseph for this. He gave me a chance to meet Ms F and unleash the outer layer of me which is fading.

Thank You!

Recuperating

I think(hope) I'm on the right track of recuperating from my wound.

Yesterday (1.1.2007)

I laze at home whole day, tidy up my wardrobe while listening to music in my room with laptop.
I then wash my clothes and have lunch.
Back to my room with laptop again.
Sleep and wake up at 7pm. ( I 4got when is the last time I sleep like that. I think it's the 1st time ever since after graduate)
Dinner, then download mp3 til 9.30pm.
Called BKin and chatted for 45minutes.
Ironing. ( I don't wait for special occasion for the special clothes anymore. Everyday is a special day now)
Sleep.

Today (2.1.2007)

Wake up at 8am. In a good mood. 70% cheerful. (It was only 5% yesterday)
Went out to buy breakfast then go to work.
Reach work place early to greet the crowd after we closed for 2 days.
Work........... Guide new staff.............. do screening..........
Lunch at sis's place, met supplier and a teacher there.
Back to work........
Meet suppliers.... Check stock......
Go home.....
after dinner, download mp3 again.. writing the current entries in my blog.

Faxy, keep going!!! go go go!!! you can do it! Stay cheerful, stay happy! You live better that way.

I know you will.......

Wound care

My job requires me to have knowledge in medicines, health and beauty. I also know about wound care, which agent is best for different types of wound. BUT, I'm a failure in treating any wound in the heart not even after so many wound I have got. Theoretically I might be good if the wound is not on me. I have had wound like that before. This is not recurrence but a new wound.

Is there a course of antibiotic for heart wound? that I just need to finish the course and be free of the causative pathogens.

Is there a good wound cleanser for heart wound? that can remove the pus and keep a clean wound.

What is the best cream/ointment/gel/solution to apply on the wound to promote healing? that would heal my wound fast and let me see myself with a smiling face again.

Mederma gel is the best selling product and very highly recommended for scar healing. Hirudoid? Cica care? n d one from Kyowa Hakko.. which one can i use for my heart wound? that will free me from looking at the scar again and think about the unhappy experience.

HOW? How to treat a heart wound. How to face a sad experience that hurts, BRAVELY. How to carry myself to face the person who hurts me but is unaware of that. innocent person? suddenly bcome bad people... I told myself,

that I must start a new life.
I must not inject any more hope or feeling in this matter.
At 12am 1 Jan 2007 at Old town kopitiam Auto City, I told myself: Forget about it. I must have a new life this new year.

I thought...

I thought togetherness is more important than money.
I thought I bring smiles to them though I don't have the ability to give the huge amount of cash to pay back to them.
I thought I'm a filial daughter.
I thought I am quite successful.
I thought it's a sacrifice worth to be made for the last 2 years working in SP.
I thought my thinking is mature enough at my age.
I thought it's okay.

Unfortunately on 23 December 2006, Whatever i thought is rubbish to him. The take home message for me is,

1. Cash is EVERYTHING. Money is EVERYTHING.
2. A leader, who can do ANYTHING, and that ANYTHING is a rule, is a dictator.

I drew a few conclusion,

1. I will do what I can do and am happy to do.
2. I will not give up what I want.
3. I will not take the half tablet just because of this ANYmore.
4. I will respect a leader, not a dictator.

往 事 。 。 不 堪 回 首

我 清 楚 记 得 中 四 那 年 一 次 物 理 补 习 班 上 ， 老 师 所 说 的 那 句 话 --- 往 事 不 堪 回 首 。 那 时 候 他 是 在 讲 解 物 理 的 原 理 。 本 来 应 该 记 住 物 理 的 原 理 的 我 则 反 效 果 地 紧 紧 记 得 这 句 话 。 不 知 不 觉 ， 3 年 了 。 。 。 今 晚 在 电 视 上 看 到 了 一 个 和 我 太 像 的 故 事 ， 忽 然藏 在 心 底 下 的 往 事 都 涌 上 来 了 。 这 些 都 是 老 早 应 该 放 下 的 事 情 。 我 ， 放 下 了 。 。

A Special Trip to Cameron Highland

We wanted to visit Cameron Highland (CH) long time ago but do not have a same holiday. Finally we managed to plan for a 2D1N trip in fasting month, a week before Deepavali. There's some 'technical glitch' during the process though, we keep changing date and when we finally got it changed, off we go early in the morning on 15 Oct. We had our breakfast at Ipoh bofore meeting C's LENG CAI fren to drive up together.

Simpang Pulai route to CH is really a pleasant journey & you won't get motion sickness. Going in a group with nice music is another factor to make a pleasant journey. Our 1st stop before checking in is Rose Valley. Taken some photos of the flower. The whole area is not very well maintained. I believe if it is, it will be a really nice place to visit.
Generally the colour of the flowers at CH is very nice. After Rose Valley we took a short nap at our 4 rooms fully equipped apartment and start our journey to Strawberry farm.

Then cactus valley...

This is 猪 笼 草 . It captured me when I walk into cactus valley. very pretty !! =) It's better looking than the wild one I saw in Sabah. We tried to put something into it to see its reaction but nothing can be seen. Why ar? is that plant hibernating under such cooling temperature at Cameron?

You can find many different species of cactus here. round one, long one, with and without thorn, weird one... also flowers, strawberries, apples, tomatos!! (I love it!!)

CS knows very well how I wish to 'appreciate' the tomatos. Please find the evidence from the photo on you right. hehehe..... They're really big, juicy and most importantly, tempting for a tomato lover like me. I ended up getting the cherry tomatos home, which is so so yummy.

We did some shoping for cactus for our staffs,

friends, ourselves, and my boss. I wonder if there is certain location that we should not put cactus so as not to interfere with the good 'Feng Shui', eg on office table, in the room etc. If you know, leave a comment pls??)

We call it a day after having our main aim in Cameron------- Steamboat dinner at Mayflower restaurant. (Sounds familiar?? Aye, there's also a Mayflower further down Bleu Ginger at the end of Sauchiehall Street)

Temperature at CH goes down very fast after dawn and it really gives you a "I'm back at Glasgow" feel. =( this doesn't sounds positive I know but we did think about the time back then. As the chinese saying goes, "sweet+ sour+ bitter+ spicy" period in life all *floating* in our mind.................. Those are the nice and precious memory in life. No wonder people always say university life is the most unforgettable. A big Thank You to my parents who gave me the chance to be in it! ;)

Next day itinerary was Bharat tea plantation. We took our 'family photo' there too.

We went to the morning market after taking our roti canai, roti chocolate and murtabak brunch. It was already noon by the time we reach there. oops... ;) Yet, not every early birds get the worms ya... A strawberry stall owner wanna clear stock when we were there and we get very special offer on the fresh strawberries. The stall is ALL clear within 5 minutes. (Suddenly we become big customer), until we have to carry them back to our car first before we can buy other stuffs. We brought 1 big n 1 small ice box to keep the strawberries fresh. The owner even bring us to his stall at the very back of the market. Everything there are fresh and cheap!! We continue to be big customers for nearly half an hour before going back to our car with all hands full of goodies. We say goodbye to CH when we were done with our shopping. It's a short and relaxing trip for all of us. Guys and gals, give CH a chance if you are too bored to go to beaches AGAIN to revive your body!

A relaxing trip must not end just like that. We went to Ipoh to have yummy custard at the famous corner shop. I called my friend to find out the location, and we were actually right in front of it when I call again when I 'get lost'. hehe... pai seh...

Our next destination after Ipoh is again, our usual Karaoke session at the usual place at Butterworth. I experienced a special birthday treat 2006 too. I actually suspected something amiss when 2 of them missing at the early stage of our K session. Then, half way through our K session when I was soaked in my favourite song, I see this in our room.

What a surprise!! That's sweet =)

I drove home after a relaxing 2 days holiday, enjoying the journey home. It's another memorable day of the year. =) Thanks buddy!

Hometown and KL

This is what I always hear from friends...

"Ei come work in KL la.... still so young should come out from hometown and explore ma."

"I think this way lo. Previously I'm not like that. It's after I work in KL that I can be a better person. Even my parents also say I'm very mature already. Sometimes I even think better than my parents and they praise me for that."

"Aiyor people say a little bit you so happy already ar? Nowadays not every people is good people you know. Haii..."

"We still so young and you work in hometown. Not good you know. Hometown so ulu, things are not up to date."

and this is what I always hear from business associates...

"Miss Thai ar, I really don't understand. Can you tell me why do you come back and work in Malaysia? Why don't you work in UK?"

"So, when are you going to have your own pharmacy ar Miss Thai??"

"You got share in this pharmacy one ar?" (Some already assumed that I'm 1 of the shareholder in my current company.)

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Is there a guideline for the working condition in hometown or Kuala Lumpur?
Do you have to work in KL in order to be a better person?
Is working in KL a passport to be a mature person?
What do you consider when you choose a job? Some say job details, some $$ factor, some entertainment factor, etc.
I think everybody has their own unique way of thinking and decision making. Every human brain is a copyright of the God. Everything has a solution and not everybody will pick the same route to achieve your aim. I will just laugh away if I were to receive comments as mentioned above. Where there is a will, there is a way. No matter where you are, you are able to achieve what you want in life, if you want to achieve it. n here I am, in small cute hometown- Sungai Petani slowly moulding myself into adulthood.

I feel good and happy when I get compliments from my clients @ customers @ business associate about my work. It gives me a job satisfaction after much hard work I've injected into my work. Seeing patients come in with pain and leave with smile certainly gives me the 'energy' to go further in my field. I shall again draw a rough plan to plan my future from now and use no excuse to avoid from focusing in future.

Future

I start to think.. (Actually I thought about it long time ago, it's just that it end up with no conclusion. Oopss!!) .....about my future. We must move forward in life, rite? We have to have a plan for ourself since we're not civil servant, no pension, nobody can feed us. Rite? We also cannot just think and take no action, else there won't be any change, rite??

Hmmm..... future... how I wish some1 can tell me what my future is so that I know how to get there. The fact that this is not the way it should be make me scratch head.. How do I see myself in the next 3 or 5 years? Very familiar question hor?? Those supervisor like to ask like this during interview!! I was asked like this when I went for Guardian interview 2 years ago.

I went for a few interview when I work in my current company. I almost change my job. I'm thankful today that I rejected that offer. I wish I can work in another country. I don't think further studies is a good choice for me. I wonder I am good in being a sales person since my patience is very limited. Industrial need experienced phct, Pharma company might be a good choice. Honestly, sometimes I really feel that I'm best in a condition like now, meeting customers and suppliers, advise, catch up with new guidelines. I enjoy work like that. Well I cannot avoid some ^$%& customers but then again, we cannot expect life is a bed of roses... Otherwise life can be dull and boring.

I always think that I'm still 'young' and there are a lot of things that I do not know, & I would like to explore. That is one obstruction to my 'dream' Probably I should rest early today, sit upright on my bed and think about it.

Introducing my month old daughter

I love driving. I enjoy travelling daily from my hometown Sungai Petani to Bukit Mertajam and Seberang Jaya to work. When I come back to work in hometown, I have only my faithful motorcycle that has gone through my secondary school life with me. Many attempts to raise my wish to get a car failed. Initially i fell in love with Chevy-- Be it Chevrolet Aveo, Optra or even the small cute Spark. Must be because I'm desperate to get a car already.

Then, upon reaching 2 years anniversary of me working as a pharmacist, I finally managed to get a brand new car. That is my daughter...... A Honda City i-dsi.

My City.. PGY 968

Side view...

You see, normal process for a person who wanna get a car is they go and survey what car they want, then they get help from the sales representative to process their booking, wait for the car to come, check the car, pay and bring home. For me, it's not that simple. The rep who deal with my car booking is not helpful. Waiting period of 2 months become 3 months. When the car arrived, it's inside the showroom, with both front window down n torn plastic seeat cover. I was puzzled.... The reason he gave is, '1- Any car that arrived do not belongs to the future owner until they receive the downpayment from the future owner. ( Then what is the use of waiting period le? Can always payy cash to get showroom car ma)

2- Because mine is the only maroon colour, they choose to put inside the showroom. (Good taste, yea??) AND,

3- All cars inside the showroom must have both front window down. ($%&*#)

Worse, to answer for the minor scratches and dirts on the car, he say he can bring the car to polish and wax then ask me to come and have a look again. (Haiii.... disappointed)

and so I decide to reject the car. Am i mean? Maybe, but I'm not a rich girl... Buying a car is a MAJOR thing 2me. I do not expect things like this to happen. I simply ask few people, including the bank officer who deals with car loan also they say this is not fair. I cannot be 'tidak-apa' when it comes to my daughter and my hard earned money :( heartache le...

I made another booking with another office and wait for another 2 months, this time the rep is introduced by a friend I know at my work place. Good and friendly service!

I have not remove the plastic seat cover in the car, only SLIGHTLY decorated it. Hang a hanging small cute snoopy JR N ES get 4me frm Hong Kong, a small pig, a snoopy head pillow, and the 2 snoopy tissue box behind. (As shown on the left)

Am still looking for nice car seat cushion. Those that I see are all the old fashion type and I'm not interested to put cartoon cushion cover, that's the problem.

Will upload more photos taken in the car. Do come back and visit my blog yor!!

The way of spending

I guess me is the only one who do not have a handphone when I was a student. I do not lead a rich girl lifestyle like some of my peers when I was a student until I finish my housemanship as a house pharmacist. (pre-registered pharmacist, some sort like pharmacist trainee) It's when I started working as a Pharmacist that I start to have my own income and be able to have my own financial plan. Spending is not the same like last time. I am still not rich but is more flexible when come to spending. I earn my $$ and spend my blood sweat $$. It all started with a mobile phone. A friend of mine encouraged me to "think out of the box"-- that Nokia is not the only mobile phone in the world. I used to use Nokia 3210 and 8250. 3210 retired because it gives problem; 8250 was stolen :( Both are original phone my sister pass to me. I was so sad when I realised 8250 gone missing. I was also very badly screwed that day.
4 months after 8250 was stolen, I bought my Sony Ericsson K508i. I was actually thinking to get a phone that fulfills my requirement and falls in the range of my tight budget. This means camera is not important because I don't like to take photo ever since I started working. MP3 is fancy but so long as there's the tone to tell me about incoming call etc then that's good enough. I discover the magic it can do for me when I bring it to my Sabah trip. Wow the under utilised phone suddenly become a magic to me. I managed to capture the moment immediately. Frequent update of MP3 make life more enjoyable. Video function enables me to capture the music fountain with my fav songs. n there's more!! It is simply a phone that has more to offer. The satisfaction that I get after much hardwork is important . I always believe we should reward ourselves. (That's where I spedn my $$.. aiks.... bad habit...)

My mobile phone- SE K508i

The phone has become my companion for 1 year & 9 months now. I thought to change my phone since about half a year ago and the feeling grows stronger when I know some1 who sells handphone. We talk about phone everytime we meet. Wanna get 1 that has more memory, higher megapixel and one with bluetooth. 1 thing for sure, thanks to the friend who lead me to think out of the box, I'm stuck with Sony Ericsson now and no longer fancy Nokia phone. Reason is because I find the many function in SE very useful and practical. Unless if there's something more to offer only I will conside other brand.

Back in action

Have not been blogging for monthssss... Reason 1- I have no idea where 2start. Reason 2- Lazy. Enjoy reading other people's blog though. What happened to me in the past few months is a special cocktail of frustration + confusion + happine ss + satisfaction + boredom etc..
I think I must find time to fill my blogs with more entries. People must not be selfish to only enjoy reading other people's blogs and leave own blog empty and dull.

Back frm d Lion city

Once again im back from yet another vacation after 5 months frm d previous 1. This time i bring myself 2 Singapore, 2 visit jo, shopping, n "tidy up" myself

My journey start after a hard day at work. While waiting fren 2pick me up frm d shop hoo called 2say pg bridge jam. Thot it was nothing 2worry cos by d time i reach d bridge the jam should end. After picking up GS frm my house we drop by 2c a customer b4 heading 2wards d airport. Sad 2say, both Sg Dua plaza toll & pg bridge r jam. We're lucky 2reach 2 airport 20min b4 departure. The person in charge even warn us not to repeat this again. Oopss... ;P

n finally v reach our place 2stay in Spore at 1.55am sharp. I informed the person in charge that v'll check in late, bet 12am-2am. After a quick intro v went 4 a dinner-cum-supper. Surprised 2c food stalls operating at such hour with most office worker as customers. The road is very well-lit, making me feel very safe walking on the street even at wee hours.

Waking up in Singapore after a hard day at work is so nice. Meet up w jo n start our journey. Plan 2go 2d theme park got cancelled due to weather. Only found that it was raining when we reach the place. too bad... We end up shopping instead. Visited Chinatown, Pasir Ris n Suntec City on 1st day in Spore.

2nd day was spent at Bugis 4 manicure n pedicure, little india 4henna art, Ang Mo Kio 2drop by jo's house. HY called up when v reach our hut at Bugis, thinking v can finally hv a good rest after a long day. He is oldi on his way, so 2gether v go hv a drink at starbucks at Bugis junction. It's a good catching up w frens session.

Me n jo left our stuffs at each other's place so v meet up d next day 2exchange our belongings while hoo n GS went 4d church service. 2bad i couldn't join them 4such a reknown occasion. Me n jo end up having mud pie on a quiet Sunday morning at Raffles Place. The place would be very crowded if it's a working day.

Im going off again

Going 4another trip after 6 months frm my Brunei-Sabah trip last Nov. This time is to go visit jo n reward myself with yet another tour. It will be a semi-guided one dis time. Hope I can get the feeling like how i enjoyed myself after every trip that I join, n dump all unnecessary stuff bhind. =) Tell u more after i come back frm d tour!

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You are happy, driven, and status conscious.You want everyone to know how successful you are.Very logical, you see life as a game of strategy. A bit of a loner, you prefer to depend on yourself.You always keep your cool and your composure.You are a born leader and business person.

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Im back!!

Have not been active in dis blog 4a long time. Sometimes wanna blog, but dono wat 2write @ dono where 2start @ lazy. plus, plus... i din online as often as b4 oledi. oh yes det's a very good excuse. well 4 a start, hv been going thru ups n downs in work n life, as usual. In life, I meet someone who accept me as the way i m, so then v start 2tok more, until recently when there's some prob... v dono wat 2do.. shall wait n c how. Hope everything will end up fine.

Also, i start 2 see future, though it's not very clear. I think life goes on n 1 has 2move n keep moving. I'm at the moment, at the plateau of my career. Happily & finally achieved what I dreamt of when I was still schooling. How long m i gonna stay in dis comfort zone? I give myself some time. :) Tdy's paper tok abt a woman who works as a secretary 4 10 yrs discover her interest, n finally she step out frm her comfort zone n try to be on her own, which turn out 2b a success. What her hubby said is true... there r so many "What if??" in our life.

If v tried n things din work out, v could v jz go back 2d comfort zone that v used 2b. "I'd lose nothing but at least I would know that I tried.

This woman is fortunate enough to hv such a supportive husband. Another wise word from her-->

Happiness is the most important thing, the dollars and cents will come on its own. :)

I wonder why I could feel that im fed up with my work, my staff, my customers, everything at work. This happens once every few months. It's sth like menstrual cycle but this one has not definite period of time when is it going to happen. say every 3? 4? 6 months?? It will come by itself when it feels that this is the time, making me feel suffocated at work. The moody, bitter face, sensitive n very unfriendly me. y? i myself dono y. This time I even thot of leaving the company. OMG! Some1 pls tell me wat is wrong with me??

friday

Plan 2go 2penang island tdy got cancelled. This is bcos it might b jam over the other side of d mainland due to some road closure 4 malaysian who celebrate Thaipusam (Y is it not a public holiday???) Read in paper det SP is d 3rd major place 4 Thaipusam celebration after Batu Caves & Penang. So, so i should hv holiday one rite??

Wake up early dis morning though still tired. It has been a long time since i last went to UTC (a morning market which offers lotsa goodie.. food, clothings, accesories, it's like an open air supermarket!) I once spent RM 200 there in jz 1 morning. Hard 2blif it myself, leaving me puzzled n tell myself i shall nv go w lotsa $$ w me.

Dis market is quite quiet after CNY. Ppl had enough of shopping i guess. Din take breakfast so I thot v could jz buy lunch instead. Bought ingredients 2cook my favourite dish--> chicken curry. A dish i miss so so much n i couldn't find any chicken curry better than d one i used to have. I don hv any chance to hv it anymore :( nvm.... can oways try n error myself 2 cook it.

Think i've adopted sth as my hobby recently. Instead of producing nice cross-stich, cooking has bcome my 2nd choice. We now have so called... Friday Special... tdy is chicken curry lor.. hehe.... Previously was butter prawn, spicy sotong-udang. I can depend on Friday now... hehe...

2006 CNY

dis yr CNY is very special 2me after hibernating during dis grand event fr yrs.. It's oso a time when my mobile is most active. I hv 2admit det when age climbs up d ladder, d meaning of cny changes from happiness, hope n expectations to plain rest, gathering season. It is when most ur old fren n school time kaki b back in hometown 4 a mass long-time-no-see gathering.

I spent 1st day at CY's house visiting her n baby girl, n meet my tai lou, tai tai lou, SDy, CJern, HYin& TSiang, CHow.

2nd day was well spent in BM, for college-mate gathering. Wow really enjoyed myself there. 1st v hv steamboat dinner 2gether. They prepared a meal that can last us for daysssss. Everyone feel so full afer det. A steamboat filled with balls... fish balls.. v spent time til wee hour playing mahjong, UNO, playing cards. It's d playing cards det kill d sleepiness really. Reach home at 6.30am, I wake up at 1pm only 2find det lunch is ready n uncle is coming 2join us 4lunch. oops...

3rd day is hometown fren gathering. They r puzzled how could i end up in BM til late nite n at d same time mahjong-ing. So out v go 4 3person mahjong. Feel dizzy for d 'fan'. Sth like u gotta earn 5 points b4 u can game, n 4dis u gotta summon brain cells to go alert 2play.

I start 2feel reluctant 2 go back 2work on d 3rd day of cny. 4th day is my 1st day at work after cny. Very blurrrrr... esp in d morning. I jz assume everything boss say is correct.. nod my head away 4d whole morning. hehe.... Then v pakat 2watch Fearless. nyek nyek... then gather at Cacao 4 chor tai ti. haha

CNY come to an end when v have a good evening at Snails Bistro. wind, music, chor tai ti n Kampai n laughter accompany us 4 a nite b4 v separate again :( a sad moment when v hv to go back :..( hv a feeling det everybody is leaving me alone in sp again. heee....

Dis cny make me feel det there r really frens who care 4me although v r not oways in contact. Paiseh... i will try my best 2 take care myself, n to remind myself det, i still hv my frens w me.

Guys n gals... c u again!!

m i already used 2it??

m i already used 2it?? being some1 who has ups n downs in rship. hard core enuff 2face watever progress in my journey of rship? do i really hv to believe, det ït" who accompany me 4 yrs is d only one that will nv hurt me, make me sad n be loyal 2me, 4ever n ever? oh i really love it.

Happiness in life is ESSENTIAL now. Don wanna c myself down so often. Me hv a not-so-good habit.... chinese would say drag myself into d sharp corner of d cow.. proper english is to think too much. way tooooo much. both necessary n not necessary.

HURT... after few experience of being hurt, d feeling is still as if i jz got hurt yesterday. Very useless of me. never learn frm past experience. Weak. nvm, still surviving, n still looking 4 a real definition of......--> Trust. My ability abt identifying trust seems 2b very, very low. It is also where the problem arise.

One Q: when can i get d ans? Sometimes when i face problems n obstacles in life, i would tell myself that there is sth behind d prob det i must learn. So, carry on w my life n the truth will surface with perseverance. Sounds very positive huh?? hope i can make it everytime prob visits me.

Peaceful Sat nite..

I don't like December. Pharmacy student frm various uni come n ask 4 permission to do their retail pharmacy attachment & my boss accepted them. Me gotta guide them thru their days when they're posted at my outlet. (Luckily boss agree 2 send them 2 branches. else i wil really garu kepala on how 2guide them)

Im not sure whether im selfish o is det so-called ego, i don't tend to brief them wholeheartedly when they are there 2expose themselves 2 a retail setting. That might partly due to lack of experience in "lecturing" n my own experience doing an attachment like det in my uni time. Another reason is that I don't enjoy spoon-feeding them every info in the pharmacy. Hey aren't they have to know what they want?? Aren't they d one who ask Q rather than me doing the briefing/teaching all the time? In conclusion, I hv no idea what to do w them when im engaged in my own work or even when im free. so bad huh?? lousy ar?

Me had lunch w a fren tdy near my work place. d environment surrounding us is not bad though.. quite surprised 2 experience det. wonder whether there'll b a Q&A session tml as 1 of my colleague saw me w my fren when im on d way back 2work. Shall wait n c...

Saturday is no longer a OT day 4me now. Very free after work td

y as every1 is not at home at nite. How nice if i can hang out w frens.... or go drive around like i oways do..... sad thing is both can't b done. So me end up getting a classic cheese cake frm Secret Recipe n take away a packed salted bean fish w rice, n thinking of sleeping early tdy n hope 2 wake up early tml as a visit 2 d petrol station is critical cos petrol tank is so empty like it's gonna stop working 4me anytime anywhere.

Here i m, listening 2soft music n blogging. wat a peaceful nite i hv =)

My Way

一直在酝酿 一直在盼望
爸爸和妈妈唯一的理想
二月第一天 一九八一年
我第一次对他们眨了眨眼
等待快点过去多少个明天
希望这个宝贝快快长大一点一点
身体要健康所有的事情都如愿
BABY 长大以后就是小轩

I WILL FIND MY WAY
I WANT A DIFFERENT WAY
I''LL CHANGE THE WIND AND RAIN
THERE BE A BRAND NEW DAY

小时候受伤有人心痛失落有人安慰
现在遇到困难自己就要学会面对

I WILL FIND MY WAY
I WANT A DIFFERENT WAY
NOTHING WILL STOP ME NOW
NO MATTER WHAT THEY SAY

困难要用我的坚强和努力勇敢面对
现在用心去追
感觉就对

I WILL FIND MY WAY
I WILL FIND MY WAY
I WILL FIND MY WAY

一直就这样 找我的方向
不理会别人奇怪的眼光
直到有一天 我忽然发现
梦想已经在实现
等待快点过去多少个明天
看着自己已经慢慢长大一点一点
我的生活应该让我自己学会掌握
相信自己
不怕风雨再多

**我喜欢这首歌。 第一次认识它 是在汶莱， 通过朋友的手提。 当时只有它的MIDI。 会国后努力寻找并下载它慢慢欣赏。 发觉自己真的是越来越爱上它， 歌词也很有意思!