Ignorant vs Arrogant

Some people do not know who are they talking to when they talk to someone. Neither do they know who they are to talk like that.
Today, someone told me.. "You don't have to be so harsh to me. It is also not my duty to do this but I can do it for you."

I wish I can just say "If you think I'm harsh, you may either see my boss or just leave." I really must not be friendly, especially to this kind of people. If you are friendly, people will take advantage on you and your position with this kind of people will seems to be swopped.

For your information, this person talk things that is not seem to be the truth. One moment they say A=A, The next moment they say A=B and A=A never exist.

My mood is disturbed by this person today. I wish he do not ask for anything in the future if he see me again. I also wish to start a plan, not to waste time ANYMORE, on this people in the future. Not even entertaining. Maybe he is ignorant? or maybe I'm arrogant? or is it the other way round?

It doesn't matter. This person---->out of my sight! I am in my position.

Stay strong, Be strong.

Today is the 1st day of work after new year for most people. It's a busy day answering telephones from suppliers today. My mood? Still very good, and it's slightly better than yesterday =)

Chatted with some of them. It gave me some insight and encouragement. WC say nv know im that tough, and that i should keep it up. HG say think positive, release tension, life can still go on. (The planet still turns no matter what happens??)

Think about it.... aren't v supposed to stand up from where we fall instead of sitting there feeling so sad about the consequences after we fall.

I remember what Ms F said.... If you think it positively, it will happen positively. You just have to believe in yourself. I must thank Joseph for this. He gave me a chance to meet Ms F and unleash the outer layer of me which is fading.

Thank You!

Recuperating

I think(hope) I'm on the right track of recuperating from my wound.

Yesterday (1.1.2007)

I laze at home whole day, tidy up my wardrobe while listening to music in my room with laptop.
I then wash my clothes and have lunch.
Back to my room with laptop again.
Sleep and wake up at 7pm. ( I 4got when is the last time I sleep like that. I think it's the 1st time ever since after graduate)
Dinner, then download mp3 til 9.30pm.
Called BKin and chatted for 45minutes.
Ironing. ( I don't wait for special occasion for the special clothes anymore. Everyday is a special day now)
Sleep.

Today (2.1.2007)

Wake up at 8am. In a good mood. 70% cheerful. (It was only 5% yesterday)
Went out to buy breakfast then go to work.
Reach work place early to greet the crowd after we closed for 2 days.
Work........... Guide new staff.............. do screening..........
Lunch at sis's place, met supplier and a teacher there.
Back to work........
Meet suppliers.... Check stock......
Go home.....
after dinner, download mp3 again.. writing the current entries in my blog.

Faxy, keep going!!! go go go!!! you can do it! Stay cheerful, stay happy! You live better that way.

I know you will.......

Wound care

My job requires me to have knowledge in medicines, health and beauty. I also know about wound care, which agent is best for different types of wound. BUT, I'm a failure in treating any wound in the heart not even after so many wound I have got. Theoretically I might be good if the wound is not on me. I have had wound like that before. This is not recurrence but a new wound.

Is there a course of antibiotic for heart wound? that I just need to finish the course and be free of the causative pathogens.

Is there a good wound cleanser for heart wound? that can remove the pus and keep a clean wound.

What is the best cream/ointment/gel/solution to apply on the wound to promote healing? that would heal my wound fast and let me see myself with a smiling face again.

Mederma gel is the best selling product and very highly recommended for scar healing. Hirudoid? Cica care? n d one from Kyowa Hakko.. which one can i use for my heart wound? that will free me from looking at the scar again and think about the unhappy experience.

HOW? How to treat a heart wound. How to face a sad experience that hurts, BRAVELY. How to carry myself to face the person who hurts me but is unaware of that. innocent person? suddenly bcome bad people... I told myself,

that I must start a new life.
I must not inject any more hope or feeling in this matter.
At 12am 1 Jan 2007 at Old town kopitiam Auto City, I told myself: Forget about it. I must have a new life this new year.