Have you ever ponder,
To whom would you like to share your success? I did.
Will the person you turn to conclude that you are being egoistic?
To whom would you like to share your sorrow? I did.
Will the person you turn to be is the correct person?
No man is an island. We need support from families, friends, colleagues, etc.
I would wish my listener share my happiness if I am success.
I would wish my listener will be able to just listen to me even if he or she do not know what to do or what to say.
The least that I will think of is, my listener do not share my happiness, instead of saying me being egoistic. Worse, the listener is someone close to me.
Maybe,
- listener is not in good mood
- listener is telling the fact, that I memang am egoistic
Thursday, January 29, 2009
Great movie, Nice people + Unexpected encounter
3rd day of CNY, I spent quality time with my family. Later in the evening I went to watch movie-- Red Cliff 2 with 2 of my friend. It was a great movie! Should be highly recommended especially for those people who know the story. It was a good CNY outing.
As we were waiting for the seating to open, my friend, J bumped into her patient(P) and P's friend at the waiting area. We casually introduced each other then shortly after that, we went in for the show. The chatting session of J and P is less than 5 minutes.
On my way sending J back to her house, P called, and ask J what movie did she watch, where were we now, until a stage, when J said to P, "Wait a minute, why are you asking me so many questions like this? You called just to ask me this?" Then P start to ask J whether I have a bf, my phone number etc. After some questioning, the conclusion is, P's friend want to date me and so he ask P to call J to find out more. He is younger than me.
I simply think this is so crap and things like this only happen 10 years ago. I think I am no longer that young to think and act like this. Guess I have to admit that, age is catching up to reach a state where reality sets in and you need a certain lever of maturity to handle it. Most of the colleague of mine are also younger than me.
If you say law of attraction works, I hope it fail this time. Otherwise, I seriously attracted the wrong things.
As we were waiting for the seating to open, my friend, J bumped into her patient(P) and P's friend at the waiting area. We casually introduced each other then shortly after that, we went in for the show. The chatting session of J and P is less than 5 minutes.
On my way sending J back to her house, P called, and ask J what movie did she watch, where were we now, until a stage, when J said to P, "Wait a minute, why are you asking me so many questions like this? You called just to ask me this?" Then P start to ask J whether I have a bf, my phone number etc. After some questioning, the conclusion is, P's friend want to date me and so he ask P to call J to find out more. He is younger than me.
I simply think this is so crap and things like this only happen 10 years ago. I think I am no longer that young to think and act like this. Guess I have to admit that, age is catching up to reach a state where reality sets in and you need a certain lever of maturity to handle it. Most of the colleague of mine are also younger than me.
If you say law of attraction works, I hope it fail this time. Otherwise, I seriously attracted the wrong things.
Wednesday, January 28, 2009
CNY Part 2
Just came back from the 2nd gathering of SMSM group (high school friend) There were more people today. Again, the only singles are the same person yesterday. Another friend announced his wedding day.
A friend who is close to the "once-special-someone" came at the end of the session and before I leave, he said to me "Try to open the door of your heart", in mandarin, "xin1 men2 kai1 yi4 dian3". Before he open his mouth, I had a feeling that he is telling me how the "once-special-someone" is doing now, which turn out to be wrong, obviously.
That gave me a shock. I've only seen him 3 times over the past 10 years, twice during CNY and in town at the traffic light.
Another friend who always ask me the same question every year, "When are you going to introduce yours(bf) to us?" My answer is always "When i get to know him", then my tai tai lou start to pair us the 2 singles.
This year, it looks like friends are more concern on my love life during hangout. HHmmmmmmm......... How le?
I've just decided to leave it aside 2 months ago wor... Reason? I don't want to hurt myself or let myself get hurt anymore lor.. I've also started my 'self protection' plan. How le??
I leave it to fate. If we meet, we meet and things may work out. Otherwise, what can I do? Please do not ask me to take action. I just can't.
Dear all my old mates, thank you for your concern. Appreciate that. I will try to reconsider when I am alone thinking.
One of them ask, how long can we maintain the gathering like this. So sad to hear this Q. Nobody is able to answer the Q. We really don't know. Not because we don't want to, but, we will have different responsibilities with our own family. I totally understand that. Still, I wish, our strong bond and friendship of 12 years will remain.
Finally, today, I learnt to talk through hand shake. I talk less than 10 sentence with my close friend, yesterday and today.
Break record.
The situation is different now.
I wish the friendship will remain the same or better.
Glad we can still talk this way.
A friend who is close to the "once-special-someone" came at the end of the session and before I leave, he said to me "Try to open the door of your heart", in mandarin, "xin1 men2 kai1 yi4 dian3". Before he open his mouth, I had a feeling that he is telling me how the "once-special-someone" is doing now, which turn out to be wrong, obviously.
That gave me a shock. I've only seen him 3 times over the past 10 years, twice during CNY and in town at the traffic light.
Another friend who always ask me the same question every year, "When are you going to introduce yours(bf) to us?" My answer is always "When i get to know him", then my tai tai lou start to pair us the 2 singles.
This year, it looks like friends are more concern on my love life during hangout. HHmmmmmmm......... How le?
I've just decided to leave it aside 2 months ago wor... Reason? I don't want to hurt myself or let myself get hurt anymore lor.. I've also started my 'self protection' plan. How le??
I leave it to fate. If we meet, we meet and things may work out. Otherwise, what can I do? Please do not ask me to take action. I just can't.
Dear all my old mates, thank you for your concern. Appreciate that. I will try to reconsider when I am alone thinking.
One of them ask, how long can we maintain the gathering like this. So sad to hear this Q. Nobody is able to answer the Q. We really don't know. Not because we don't want to, but, we will have different responsibilities with our own family. I totally understand that. Still, I wish, our strong bond and friendship of 12 years will remain.
Finally, today, I learnt to talk through hand shake. I talk less than 10 sentence with my close friend, yesterday and today.
Break record.
The situation is different now.
I wish the friendship will remain the same or better.
Glad we can still talk this way.
Tuesday, January 27, 2009
An unusual CNY gathering
Before this CNY, we predicted the number of 'attendees' in friends gathering will be significantly reduced. Nothing to do with the current economic situation, only thing is, most of our close friends are already married.
Our prediction turns out to be true.There were less than 10 of us. Of that, only 2 are still single. 1 of them has been single for a long time, the other has just became single not too long ago.
Oh yes there were 2 spouses with only one of them is our high school friend, who also bring her very very cute daughter. =) glad to see her. I guess me and the other close friend's spouse came from a different planet in our last life, because I could not communicate with her anytime we meet.
Me am not trying to be 'small gas' to grab attention/looking for trouble, neither do I love to keep hatred to exercise my limited brain cells so much. The first few times we meet, we could hardly chat. The conversation is very simple, 1 answer will be given for 1 Q, Only. Over time, I realised, that happens to only me.
Once, me and a friend visited our close high school friend in KL and we went for dinner together. That is the time when me feel extremely uneasy. Not only there is zero communication, what i received is super black charcoal face. I seriously dislike it. I feel I'm a trouble, which i think, it is not normal to show this face to a friend who come from far to visit. Have I done something wrong which I may have overlooked? Okay okay, I try to understand city girl are like that. Me and my friend did talk about it few months later, when we almost debate over the issue and I doubt whether our friendship will break because of it. I do not wish that to happen.
I tried to communicate, I tried to understand, but, I still fail to see her talking to me. Tell me if me am too ugly to talk to u, me will make up before me meet you, Tell me that me smell, me will make sure me bath and use perfume before me see you. After so many attempts, finally, on their wedding day, when me purposely go up to her to wish her, only to see myself being ignored face to face even before me finish my sentence, me decided to give up.
Me hope she will feel better, and I will be happier. I like to stay happy, I like to enjoy when it's the time to enjoy, especially during gathering or meeting the old mates session. It's okay if you dislike me because we came from different planet last time, or for whatever reason that make you treat me like that! Me do not tink me deserved that treatment. Me do not want to spoil the relationship between me and my friend. Me will leave you alone and make sure me am happy. Me hope you feel a lot better, even if you're not, I'm sorry, my aim is to enjoy the session and make sure myself not been treated like invisible/someone who owed you lotsa lotsa money. If that is your attempt to spoil our relationship as well as my close 12 years friendship, I am speechless.
Today, the very first time we meet after I decided to give up. As a host, once again, she ignored me. I do not see any reason I have to please her and make her talk to me. It is a public place though you are a host, so I can sit down and gather with my old mates. I ensure our seating arrangement is good enough and distance enough for you to have enough reasonable reason to ignore me. I know my friend is also making effort to suit the situation, thanks, I thank you for still maintaining our friendship of 12 years.
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I have something to add: Thank you for your understanding over the past 12 years. I am sorry if this make you think that I am doing unnecessary things. From the day of your big day, I start to have a feeling that I could no longer chat with you like last time. I do not wish to create any trouble to you. I wish you can live happily with your new family and our friendship is still valid for the next 12, 24, 36, 48, 60, 72..... year. I also wish, this issue will resolve one day. I do not wish to see unhappy face caused by me.
Wishing you a Happy, Healthy, Wealthy, Prosperity Ox Year!!
Message for you and your family to welcome Ox Year,
Later, Mr Chung and his family will visit me. I'll ask them to visit you too! The Chung family members are: Chung Ma Piu, Chung Tai Choi, Chung ToTo & Chung 4D. They will be there to wish you Good Luck for 2009. fyi, Chung Saman is out of town this year, so,
ENJOY!! HAPPY NIU YEAR!
Our prediction turns out to be true.There were less than 10 of us. Of that, only 2 are still single. 1 of them has been single for a long time, the other has just became single not too long ago.
Oh yes there were 2 spouses with only one of them is our high school friend, who also bring her very very cute daughter. =) glad to see her. I guess me and the other close friend's spouse came from a different planet in our last life, because I could not communicate with her anytime we meet.
Me am not trying to be 'small gas' to grab attention/looking for trouble, neither do I love to keep hatred to exercise my limited brain cells so much. The first few times we meet, we could hardly chat. The conversation is very simple, 1 answer will be given for 1 Q, Only. Over time, I realised, that happens to only me.
Once, me and a friend visited our close high school friend in KL and we went for dinner together. That is the time when me feel extremely uneasy. Not only there is zero communication, what i received is super black charcoal face. I seriously dislike it. I feel I'm a trouble, which i think, it is not normal to show this face to a friend who come from far to visit. Have I done something wrong which I may have overlooked? Okay okay, I try to understand city girl are like that. Me and my friend did talk about it few months later, when we almost debate over the issue and I doubt whether our friendship will break because of it. I do not wish that to happen.
I tried to communicate, I tried to understand, but, I still fail to see her talking to me. Tell me if me am too ugly to talk to u, me will make up before me meet you, Tell me that me smell, me will make sure me bath and use perfume before me see you. After so many attempts, finally, on their wedding day, when me purposely go up to her to wish her, only to see myself being ignored face to face even before me finish my sentence, me decided to give up.
Me hope she will feel better, and I will be happier. I like to stay happy, I like to enjoy when it's the time to enjoy, especially during gathering or meeting the old mates session. It's okay if you dislike me because we came from different planet last time, or for whatever reason that make you treat me like that! Me do not tink me deserved that treatment. Me do not want to spoil the relationship between me and my friend. Me will leave you alone and make sure me am happy. Me hope you feel a lot better, even if you're not, I'm sorry, my aim is to enjoy the session and make sure myself not been treated like invisible/someone who owed you lotsa lotsa money. If that is your attempt to spoil our relationship as well as my close 12 years friendship, I am speechless.
Today, the very first time we meet after I decided to give up. As a host, once again, she ignored me. I do not see any reason I have to please her and make her talk to me. It is a public place though you are a host, so I can sit down and gather with my old mates. I ensure our seating arrangement is good enough and distance enough for you to have enough reasonable reason to ignore me. I know my friend is also making effort to suit the situation, thanks, I thank you for still maintaining our friendship of 12 years.
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I have something to add: Thank you for your understanding over the past 12 years. I am sorry if this make you think that I am doing unnecessary things. From the day of your big day, I start to have a feeling that I could no longer chat with you like last time. I do not wish to create any trouble to you. I wish you can live happily with your new family and our friendship is still valid for the next 12, 24, 36, 48, 60, 72..... year. I also wish, this issue will resolve one day. I do not wish to see unhappy face caused by me.
Wishing you a Happy, Healthy, Wealthy, Prosperity Ox Year!!
Message for you and your family to welcome Ox Year,
Later, Mr Chung and his family will visit me. I'll ask them to visit you too! The Chung family members are: Chung Ma Piu, Chung Tai Choi, Chung ToTo & Chung 4D. They will be there to wish you Good Luck for 2009. fyi, Chung Saman is out of town this year, so,
ENJOY!! HAPPY NIU YEAR!
Sunday, January 25, 2009
Pre-Chinese Niu (Ox) Year
CNY is just around the corner and is coming real soon. While people are burying themselves in the daily chorus to spring clean the house, I am home 5 days b4 CNY to get ready to celebrate Ox year.
What do me do?
1. CNY shopping-- I still like to shop at Carrefour. Oops I don't mean to be a non-Aeon supporter though, only thing is that I find more varieties at Carrefour, and quite importantly, I do get plastic bags when I shop at Car4.
2. Prepare CNY cookies-- We usually only prepare the famous SP "Ribbon Cookies" nowadays because all of us are already working adults. Unlike the time when we were still schooling, we make all sorts of CNY cookies at home, kuih kapit, kuih bangkit, etc.
To prepare the Ribbon cookies, we just need to buy the ready made raw material, cut it, fold it into a ribbon shape and then fry it until it turn golden brown colour. It's simply and yummy!! ;)
There is also something extra this year, ie Carrot walnut cake. I managed to buy imported walnut at a bargain price from my work place so I can make any walnut-related recipe now. hehe.... The response was good from facebook too!! Thx guys!
What do me do?
1. CNY shopping-- I still like to shop at Carrefour. Oops I don't mean to be a non-Aeon supporter though, only thing is that I find more varieties at Carrefour, and quite importantly, I do get plastic bags when I shop at Car4.
2. Prepare CNY cookies-- We usually only prepare the famous SP "Ribbon Cookies" nowadays because all of us are already working adults. Unlike the time when we were still schooling, we make all sorts of CNY cookies at home, kuih kapit, kuih bangkit, etc.
To prepare the Ribbon cookies, we just need to buy the ready made raw material, cut it, fold it into a ribbon shape and then fry it until it turn golden brown colour. It's simply and yummy!! ;)
There is also something extra this year, ie Carrot walnut cake. I managed to buy imported walnut at a bargain price from my work place so I can make any walnut-related recipe now. hehe.... The response was good from facebook too!! Thx guys!
Saturday, January 10, 2009
Being Rebellious
Last night, I've told myself to go to sleep and tomorrow I will know what to do. I wake up this morning and start preparing all necessary documents to say good bye.
I wish to work with dignity. Am i being ego? I hope not. I've personally think that I've contributed beyond expectations. Sometimes I put down my professioonal position to fulfill your requirement. Now, it's time to regain my dignity.
I begin to understand the corporate world. I begin to understand our mindset is so different. We do not see eye to eye. We think differently. No wonder you never understand. Whatever it is, I'm leaving. This time, I leave with dignity. I leave without feeling sad/effort wasted etc. I know what I've done, I know how I've performed, I wish you all the best, I hope you will be able to retain the current success that i enjoy in my department, if not make it better. You better do. If I come back to visit and I find you do not maintain it well, it is a shame on you!
I wish to work with dignity. Am i being ego? I hope not. I've personally think that I've contributed beyond expectations. Sometimes I put down my professioonal position to fulfill your requirement. Now, it's time to regain my dignity.
I begin to understand the corporate world. I begin to understand our mindset is so different. We do not see eye to eye. We think differently. No wonder you never understand. Whatever it is, I'm leaving. This time, I leave with dignity. I leave without feeling sad/effort wasted etc. I know what I've done, I know how I've performed, I wish you all the best, I hope you will be able to retain the current success that i enjoy in my department, if not make it better. You better do. If I come back to visit and I find you do not maintain it well, it is a shame on you!
Friday, January 09, 2009
Disappointed :(
I am very disappointed today.I feel officially not aprreciated today.
First, my potential shop owner rejected my request to use his shop. He said if I contact him 2 months ago, things will be different. He cannot let me use the shop now because he has execute his own plan and he need the shop. I feel my spirit drop to the very low level. Me cannot smile, me moody, me lazy, me sien....
Second, this is the best part. My boss blame me that I do not appreciate his hard work. He said he supported me all this while and now I cannot even fulfill his "small" request. He said he is not happy. He said he is disappointed that I cannot "help" him, eventhough he said this is his personal request.
Well well, he said he need time. I said I've given 2 month's time. When he said I do not appreciate his support, I begin to feel angry and very disappointed. I told him "If you want to talk about job duty, I've already go all out." Then, he said 'ha la ha la' and he hang up there. I'm sorry to say, I really look down at him. I do not see his leadership. I do not know how this way of solving problem can help him to retain me. I think he only make me feel even frustrated.
Now, shall I leave as planned or extend since he treated me like that? Before the conversation, I understand, that, when one is working for people, no matter how much effort you put in, your boss might not see it nor appreciate it, no matter how strong you are, regardless of how good you are, you are easily replaced by someone senior than you or even stronger than you or even a junior who know nothing.
After the conversation, I've now officially experienced it. Very sad, for all the effort and extra effort that I've injected in my work, not only it is not appreciated as professional, it is not even labelled as 'work'.
Dear Sir, I've done everything I can and I can't. I'd outdo myself to fulfill your requirement. It is ok if people from other department do not understand. I simply cannot accept you yourself, after so many experiences, failed to understand. No wonder, all under you leave one by one. I don't think I owe you anything or I do not contribute enough.
However if your little mind do not recognise, I wish you all the best. Enough is enough. I shall consider to just pull out and leave you alone. You must realise what are you doing and what have you contribute to our effort and grievances.
Last but not least, please remember you are the top person in your department in an adult world. Your image and leadership is important, for people to respect you and work for you. Kindly keep your current habit at home for your kids.
First, my potential shop owner rejected my request to use his shop. He said if I contact him 2 months ago, things will be different. He cannot let me use the shop now because he has execute his own plan and he need the shop. I feel my spirit drop to the very low level. Me cannot smile, me moody, me lazy, me sien....
Second, this is the best part. My boss blame me that I do not appreciate his hard work. He said he supported me all this while and now I cannot even fulfill his "small" request. He said he is not happy. He said he is disappointed that I cannot "help" him, eventhough he said this is his personal request.
Well well, he said he need time. I said I've given 2 month's time. When he said I do not appreciate his support, I begin to feel angry and very disappointed. I told him "If you want to talk about job duty, I've already go all out." Then, he said 'ha la ha la' and he hang up there. I'm sorry to say, I really look down at him. I do not see his leadership. I do not know how this way of solving problem can help him to retain me. I think he only make me feel even frustrated.
Now, shall I leave as planned or extend since he treated me like that? Before the conversation, I understand, that, when one is working for people, no matter how much effort you put in, your boss might not see it nor appreciate it, no matter how strong you are, regardless of how good you are, you are easily replaced by someone senior than you or even stronger than you or even a junior who know nothing.
After the conversation, I've now officially experienced it. Very sad, for all the effort and extra effort that I've injected in my work, not only it is not appreciated as professional, it is not even labelled as 'work'.
Dear Sir, I've done everything I can and I can't. I'd outdo myself to fulfill your requirement. It is ok if people from other department do not understand. I simply cannot accept you yourself, after so many experiences, failed to understand. No wonder, all under you leave one by one. I don't think I owe you anything or I do not contribute enough.
However if your little mind do not recognise, I wish you all the best. Enough is enough. I shall consider to just pull out and leave you alone. You must realise what are you doing and what have you contribute to our effort and grievances.
Last but not least, please remember you are the top person in your department in an adult world. Your image and leadership is important, for people to respect you and work for you. Kindly keep your current habit at home for your kids.
Saturday, January 03, 2009
I have many holidays that I need to clear. I only need to work for less than half a month if I clear all in Jan. Great isn't it? This is the time when I see my effort of working on public holidays pays off.
I've decided to leave 'you'. I just need to get a confirmation then I can plan how to have a new life after leaving you.
I feel a bit of down because of the transition period, bit of disappointment of the treatment I received, bit of reluctant as I've started all this, I see how the baby, the best in North was born, how it is nurtured to make it work and make it a success, how I make my way through the hard times, I really have to thank you a lot.
I cannot have 100% confidence that this is the right time to leave you because I would not know what comes after leaving you. Everything is in tip top condition now, I do not want or hope to see disappointed face among others too. I'm sure I will give them who see us grow together a shock for CNY. :(
Me don't know... Me do hope, after we've parted, you will still grow and gain respect from the public, you will still have the charm that I see on you. I will have to start a new life again, not knowing what is ahead of me.
I'm not sure if I'm perfectly OK, but, I just have to face it. I might fall
again, just like how I suffer during the initial stage we were together, I hope I can handle it better than last time.
Hmm... Note to readers: Don't worry I'm not going through a break up ya! This is about my career. i hope I do not give you a shock again. =)
I've decided to leave 'you'. I just need to get a confirmation then I can plan how to have a new life after leaving you.
I feel a bit of down because of the transition period, bit of disappointment of the treatment I received, bit of reluctant as I've started all this, I see how the baby, the best in North was born, how it is nurtured to make it work and make it a success, how I make my way through the hard times, I really have to thank you a lot.
I cannot have 100% confidence that this is the right time to leave you because I would not know what comes after leaving you. Everything is in tip top condition now, I do not want or hope to see disappointed face among others too. I'm sure I will give them who see us grow together a shock for CNY. :(
Me don't know... Me do hope, after we've parted, you will still grow and gain respect from the public, you will still have the charm that I see on you. I will have to start a new life again, not knowing what is ahead of me.
I'm not sure if I'm perfectly OK, but, I just have to face it. I might fall
again, just like how I suffer during the initial stage we were together, I hope I can handle it better than last time.
Hmm... Note to readers: Don't worry I'm not going through a break up ya! This is about my career. i hope I do not give you a shock again. =)
Thursday, January 01, 2009
Happy New Year!!
1 Jan 2009 marks the 1st day of the year of cow.
I'm working today!! Well well, supermarket people like me have the opposite holiday like the majority. We work on public holiday! Our workload is heavy and our reward for that is extra holiday! ;) You will pity us when you go for holiday but envy when we go for long holiday while you're working, then you wonder what company is that to give so many holidays for the employee.
My 1st day of working in 2009 is not very smooth. Arrghhh... spoil the new year mood. We are busy entertaining complaints because of price discrepancies!! Oh my my.. thats the least that I will think of to get busy on a New Year Day. Business is good, it's very crowded and long queue at the cashier counter. However the unhappy faces are a lot too. It somehow reach my threshold of patience towards the evening. In order to protect my customers, to secure my extremely high target this year, to cut down the number of unhappy customers and to make everything smooth for aall my staffs, I can't help but to seek for phone numbers from another colleague to get all the price to go back to its normal promotional price.
Me stay back for 2 hours and only leave the store at 8.10pm. What a day! Leaving store with the thinking of price problem solved, there came another problem, customers looking for medicines just after i left! Sigh.... Why are they not coming when I'm there? I think I seriously need to reschedule my working hours.
I'm working today!! Well well, supermarket people like me have the opposite holiday like the majority. We work on public holiday! Our workload is heavy and our reward for that is extra holiday! ;) You will pity us when you go for holiday but envy when we go for long holiday while you're working, then you wonder what company is that to give so many holidays for the employee.
My 1st day of working in 2009 is not very smooth. Arrghhh... spoil the new year mood. We are busy entertaining complaints because of price discrepancies!! Oh my my.. thats the least that I will think of to get busy on a New Year Day. Business is good, it's very crowded and long queue at the cashier counter. However the unhappy faces are a lot too. It somehow reach my threshold of patience towards the evening. In order to protect my customers, to secure my extremely high target this year, to cut down the number of unhappy customers and to make everything smooth for aall my staffs, I can't help but to seek for phone numbers from another colleague to get all the price to go back to its normal promotional price.
Me stay back for 2 hours and only leave the store at 8.10pm. What a day! Leaving store with the thinking of price problem solved, there came another problem, customers looking for medicines just after i left! Sigh.... Why are they not coming when I'm there? I think I seriously need to reschedule my working hours.
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