me beloved album

A nice n meaningful photo album. Mixture of d sweet+ sour+bitter+spicy memory in IMU. Part of life which i will cherish d moments. They are my long lost beloved album. IT finally come back to its master. A day of relief n happy 2have it back under my care. Its unique mix is a treasure of mine.

At last, im united again w my beloved photo album. It represents a bday present frm my koko n read a thousands word abt life in IMU. Discovered female capability n responsibility is proven 2b better than male sometimes. When v say v wanna do it, v wil do it. v don't drag. Dis case doesn't apply 2every ppl i know but it's true in my case tdy. =)

M so happy det i sms my fren who knows immediately after i got it back frm d hand of his fren. Then me happily drive 2 continue my 2nd working shift. Now i can concentrate to restart liao. I'm more confident 2restart when the timing is here.

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Looking back, i've work 6 consecutive days for 13hours. Still going strong?? hope so la... tired oso le... stress start 2build up liao.... how nic eif i can work n at d same time njoy life. :(

Actor n Actress

"Chuan Chen, esok u kena mai ya." 1 sentence n i wipe off my plan 4 friday, get dressed n go to work on a Friday. RTM wanna do some shooting on boss's success business. Me involved too. Hello they r focusing on our outlet n my boss le.. should be excited n proud of boss rite?? but arr... long working hours few days back oledi dampen my spirit.

Arrived at shop 9am sharp (which is rare) :P Me actually act usual n start doing my work. soon, boss arrived n then d crew. Shooting 1st done at our 1st floor office. Everyone is so excited n tense wondering what will happen next. Ms Thai carry on w her work. I hv dis long 'overdue' quotation 2b finished, at d same time wondering since when quotation bcome part of my job. nvm la... don so kira la.. all staff bz w opening of new branch ma.. everybody busy ma... somemore dis quotation involved poison items ma.. most importantly, boss bring it to me by hand ask me do ma!! aiks..

Shooting continues 2 an inteview with 2nd boss-my boss punya wife lor.. While they r setting up d light, camera etc, me quietly move my stuff 2d counter n continue serving customers who came in n show us their curious facial expression. Some stood at the entrance thinking they entered d wrong shop. haha..

Shortly after that, It's my turn 2b interviewed. wow!! I hv good interview experience but they r all job interview which involve my future.. dis kind of interview is really 1st of its kind in my life. Tension!! Boss say nvm la.. jz answer their Q spontaneously la. They jz wanna know ur opinion abt me SAJA. (det saja very important le.. wat will happen if i say wrong thing?)

Calmly finish d interview, din say anything negative (Of cos!!) n then i become "farmasi bergerak"--- serve customer outside d shop bcos they r filming a brief show in d shop, w my staff n a customer randomly picked 2act as customers asking 4refund of spoilt goods.

After friday prayers, me bcome 'tao iu' 2bring our team to boss's house 2cont w d shooting. aiyor... Spent d whole afternoon laughing, chatting n acting. When shooting at boss's house end, it starts 2 rain!! Our branch phrmacist's car has got a punctured tyre, n all of us surprisingly c our boss is d one helping 2change d tyre.. wow! really a kind boss when he keep his bossy face.

me d tao iu continue 2bring my team n RTM team 2our branches 2finish shooting.n my acting day finally end w a buka puasa at boss's house 2gether with d RTM team n S/K pharmacist . I had an early visit 2boss's house b4 raya dis yr since i won b around during raya. hee... dinner was nice. Air asam made by 2nd boss is very tasty. =)

It's already 8.30pm when i go back 2d shop. huh... 11 hrs work tdy... m i tired? i think so. tml another working day :(

???

Many things happen tdy. Let's start frm work... *so boring.. oways work work n work*

Bz w ordering in early morning. Meet few supplier. Prep goods n ans Q frm Dr.. tdy no difficult customer. Hungry... n it rain heavily jz when i wanna out 4lunch. y?? stock came in. Just nice 4me 2stay back 4a while..

Problems come after lunch. 1 box of goods missing!! nvm... informed person in charged. will look into det matter. Customer called n wanna speak to 'the pharmacologist'. pardon?? okay.... new branch gave medicines, she wanna confirm d correct dosage n frequency. As me explaining halfway, found sth not rite.. how come brown colour susp turned into green color??? Suspect sth wrong, say call back d pt while me checking out what they gave. See, another typical example of, 'their problem is our problem, our problem is our problem'. hey!! think me so eng sit there nothing 2do izit?? Called them, give them watever particular they nit, n ask them to -sendiri kao tim- They give excuse say they don't have the stock det's y... haiii.... in fact, jz given 1 gallen a week ago. Don't tell me u finish all 4Liter in a week?????

Later in d afternoon.. boss came... gave me a suggestion... "i let u go back 2hrs earlier say abt twice a week, u represents me 2go 2 our branch. okay?? that way v can ease phct long working hrs." What can i say le? me seriously lack d skill of defending myself in boss punya 'suggestion' Last time abt my day off oso same case.

Come evening, still early.. suddenly thot of my stuff, n stop by d road, call det %#^* 2try take it by myself. Heard some horrible voice instead, n a pek chek "hallo!!" fine. keep d mouth shut is good 4both party. %#^* bz n outstation. Conclusion--hopeless.

Finally after work... Glued 2d screen as usual.. Found out a truth. Don't really know how to react over it. tell frankly lor..

as i told u b4, i jz "lost a job"... so.....dono how 2say..

Thankful 4d understanding. Aware of hurt i might cause. But me really lost confidence..n i treasure our frenship.

Think i start 2crave 2 chocolate again. Shall go n get 1 tml.

Is det my fault??

Me remember CLEO mag few months ago stated when u hv more n more responsibilities in ur job det's a good news bcos det shows ur boss trust n hv confidence in u, BUT, i think,

not when u r 2b 'blamed' o 'questioned' when things gone wrong. 2d managers out there!!! Can't u guys make use of d precious organ God give us --> b_a_in!! Also, pls take note pointing fingers no longer work perfect now. Sometimes i feel like im working in multiple outlet + hold multiple positions everyday, but get paid 4 d work in only 1 outlet n 1 position.

1st, pleaase u do ur work b4 u start 2blame.

2nd, pleaase b creative, think of alternatives. There is so so much of variety!! it's not a 1-way street okay??!! If v can think of 1, y not u? d m*n*g*r

3rd, pleaase b fair n considerate. Hey im not sitting here doing nothing all day long okay? im practically doing my job, ur job, hers n their jobs!!!

4th, mana wa punya bonus?

If...

Sometimes, i think, If...

I can control my mood when i'm so so sad.
I know what i wan in life
I know wat 2do
I can go back 2d time in SMSM n Glasgow.
I m happy now?
I can be smart enough 2avoid ppl taking advantage of me
I can hv lotssssa frens 2hang around
I can get rid of work politics
I can face failure bravely
I know wat 2do when i m not in d mood
I can hv new clothes always
I can handle my increasingly heavy workload maturely
I can pamper myself everyday
I m so bz hanging out w frens
I hv frens 2share happy n sad moment
I can be more knowledgeble..
I can handle difficult customer
I can b patient n kind 2my customer
I can hv enough $$ 2spend 2make myself happy
I can stop thinking about wat oledi past n draft my future
I can get a car

surprise..surprise...

Tdy me as usual late 4work. Shock 2c boss coming out frm d shop when i wanna enter. Oops... Don't think he mind. Saturday blue ma... walk sluggishly into d shop(daily routine), usually with a serious face, n my staff like 2try anything they can 2make me smile, n they don usually get what they want. It's a WORKING Saturday!! what do u expect??

Got a shock when i go to d back of d shop, wow did i enter wrong shop? it looks like recycle shop full of empty boxes!! It must b a hard day 4 them yest 2clear d mess. Have a look at our store, hmmm... very good.. everything neatly arranged. they r more efficient if they puasa ehh?

My hands r heavy.. brain is slow.. ouh n it's still not even 11am!! start 2count down when i can go home n hv a rest. jz like last time while in uni, 1st thing in mind after class is zzz...

A father brings his 2 kids insist 2c d phct. m concerned abt kid's rashes. Tips n counselling given. Request to 'check' (examine) d kid. haiii... he managed 2gain all necessary info n go off w a bottle of vit 4 d kids.

Mr regular, uncle O came tdy!! He said he wanna take me 4dinner last time n me nv reply. phai seh ma... he ask again dis time. hmm....

My memory is no longer like how it used 2b. oways 4getful as if it's an early sign of alzheimer.. probably should try 2do sth on it! sleepy.... tired.. tml working sunday.. aaarrrrgggghhhhhh!!!

Mission accomplished

Finally... det useless $&@^ say he will ask some1 2 pass 2me. better than me not seeing my stuff again la! watever way, so long as i get it, then u get out of my sight n mind!! good 4u n me la. dun ever think det's an excuse to keep u in mind. u dun deserve it bcos useless stuff of any sort dun deserve it. I will b most happy 2hv it back 2me. menghitung hari.. til i c my album..

Yeah it's Friday again!!

What a meaningful friday i hv tdy. 1st, i wake up 8.20am. (on a friday!!) thot 2go out 4breakfast but both parents oledi went out. so, TheStar wish me good morning. Had breakfast, hv a chat w neighbour who came over early morning, then i change n go to work. (part-time)

Reach there 10.02am oops!! acceptable la.... only 2min late...(ONLY) Do some glucose n BP test, some counselling, some dispensing, 2pm d.. time 2change shift.. can bring d car n go wet! 1st destination go to claim my trousers sent 4alteration, at d same time browse 4 new arrival,

2nd, go n meet GC. go 2breed mosquito actually (sembang) but then she bz at work. so, session cut short, jump to d car again n head 4 d next destination--> handphone shop. Bring my SE 2c dr... it doesn't wan 2wake me up if i shut it down when i sleep. He say software prob.. i say not even 1 yr i buy dis phone. hehe...He reset d phone... so we shall wait n c whether it has any improvement. While waiting 4him 2inspect my hp, i was looking at a colourful samsung new model which i saw in TheStar dis morning. Yet d boss recommend another SE... n b4 i leave, he say "Ask ur husband to buy 1 4 u la". I say "Wait til i marry la". N d boss surprisingly ask "Har wat? u not yet marry de ar??" aiks... only 1 thign in my mind... do i actually look so "mature"??

4th destination is another shop to claim my top which oso sent 4 alteration. dis ppl hv been calling me at least EOD.... only fail to hv me answer d call everytime they call. Told them to sms d de la.. sendiri cari susah de... :P

Final destination is a dessert house.. but 2my disappointment, they r close tdy =( So, went home lor..
Feel good 2 finish doing all d stuff i wan 2do in a day. The best part is driving frm place 2place w nice music.. aha... hot sun doesn't bother me much in det way =) Tdy is oso a rare Friday det i can online at home at dis hr.

Hope 2hv good friday every friday. hee...

鸟人

(我的) 俗语说: 今天不是工作天.

因为今天是诸位鸟人(鸟顾客) 齐来本姑娘任职的地方聚集的好日子吧.

之一:
首先出现的是老爱摆架子, 喜欢用支票还区区几块钱的单的教育界"奇才" *还好已经退休了, 否则真担心会误人子弟* 此人不满意我给他的价钱, 老爱拿老板的名来"压"我. 哎哟老兄, 您老是要以那有历史性的老价钱来交易, 教我怎么向老板交待, 又怎么保着老娘的饭碗呐?? 很抱歉地跟"奇才"说恐怕今时今日不能像以前那样了. 通货膨胀我也不想的 的确有太多货品起价了呀! :( 哪里晓得"奇才" 不只一点都不能谅解, 还怒骂老娘不懂规矩, 没照老板给他的价钱来卖, 还扮大方的说没关系, 他会告诉老板好让老板可以退钱给他. 哎哟老板交待的价钱与您奇才的是的确有距离呀. 况且您态度也需检讨一下吧, 别总是让人看到您就超想看不到您嘛! 默默的等待奇才这次掏出腰包拿出现款, 礼貌的说了谢谢, 再光临, 奇才竟然大大声的喝本人"说到底你还是算我新价钱???!!!!!! 好! 我一定要告诉你老板!! Tell her that u don treated me well!!!!!" 哗...老娘可火了..您不可理喻还算了, 竟然还用这种英语来恐吓我?? 于是本人边当他透明边说告到首相我也不怕你边走回座位, 火炭般的脸继续面对供应商写货.

之二:
没到二分钟, 那好久不见, "和蔼可亲" 的音乐家顾客也光临, 本人不怕什么, 只是怕他会呆着找话谈,然后又开始唱歌给我听. 我总是不懂得如何反应的 :( 还好供应商有在, 同事已经帮忙搞掂他了. 可是!!! 他还是走了过来, 要量血压. :( 无可避免的了 :( 谈了一阵子, 我又忙我的了. 写着货嘛. URGENT 的哩. 音乐家休息一会儿, 便告辞了.

之三:
以为可以安心继续工作了, 五分钟后又来一个出了名超级杞人忧天的顾客. 做好心里准备来回答他一萝萝的问题, 怎么知道今天好辛运, 他只问一样. 奇怪的是, 问完了他就谢谢, 随即掉头走了.今天好爽快耶!

明天是PUASA第一天, 祝我少遇到鸟人...

it's a leisure friday

It's another Friday. Tdy is my off day. Loud phone call ringing tone wake me up , answering phone blurr-ly... n back on my bed again. Too bad i can't concentrate on it anymore. Decided 2wake up n do my laundry.

Mum change her usual pattern. She stop buying me breakfast on Friday morning since I only take brunch on Friday. *grin* Had my bean cereal drink n a piece of biscuit, then i start reading newspaper. Since it's my off day, I decided to do things slowly n leisurely. 1 way 2ease stress accumulated over the week. Halfway through updates about dengue n letters 2d editor, suddenly i realised that i hv yet to bank in my cheque! Okay... change n off i go to Central Square- d complex that jz created a news 2 days ago A student gone missing after telling d gf 2wait 4him while he go withdraw money. I think twice if i were 2go central square now.

It's crowded in the bank. Luckily not a long queue 4 cheque deposit machine. Spent 5minutes in d bank, then go n visit LY. Actually only plan 2go 2bank n come back. Only wear my phantom of opera black top n jeans.. cincai la.. jz go.. old fren won mind wat i wear kot??

Lepak enough at LY's place, go home la..... det's when i start 2b pc's best fren until now, 5pm d... hhmmm... chatting, surfing 4my coming trip, online banking again, even play online games w some1 who's working tdy. haha... nice game! Some 1 who is $%&# 2me msg in d afternoon. wat a crap msg. reply oso... keep msg... fine. discovered a new solution to do when v hv msg frm ppl like dis. --switch off d phone!

Later hv to go buy stuff b4 go to sis's shop. Tml another working day. haiii.. i dislike working saturday n sunday.

Dilemma

If there's such place named 'D Home of dilemma', I think I live in it over the past 1 week. Life has come to a stage where I start 2ponder what can I do 4my future. Am I going to continue with what I have now or do sth different? *Unknown*

1stly my daily life. Diagnosed by myself as having unhealthy lifestyle.
1- Lack of sleep-- Rx: Cut down internet time, create good sleeping time at nite
2- Unhealthy meal + fear of antioxidant-- Rx: Make sure i visit fruit aunty at break n munch fruitsss daily.
3- Exercise-NIL-- Rx: dis one take some time 2fix a time allocated 4exercise. *good excuse hor??*
4- Treat computer as best friend-- Rx: dis is a fact. kenot do much... Will still glued 2it 4 entertainment of any sort.


2nd my career
1- 2much into working life-- Rx: Must learn 2take it easy. *aiks say is easier than do. jz can't stand if things aren't on the track.
2- 2efficient-- Rx: Learn 2adapt 2d working environment im in. Mayb it's not easy but have to try no matter wat. Must oways remember im only a worker oh..
3- uncertainty-- Rx: Since think come think go oso think no road, dun force 2much might hv better return. advised 2carry on w life n stay alert 4life changes. To stay o to go? We'll decide later.


3rd my relationship
1- Regret-- Rx: Nothing can b done. What oledi past is history. Nobody can change history.
2- Cheated-- Rx: What 2do? Move on w life lo... Always believe that God arrange all those 4us to learn n 2pick up essential skills. There's sth in front 4us 2 c c look look & b a better person.
3- Admire-- Rx: Take it positively n b humble. Nice things comes n goes. Golden period in life. Appreciate it la.


4th my personality
1- Cheerful-- Rx: Keep it up
2- Moody-- Rx: Acceptable. It's good to let go of sadness n frustration rather than keeping it n hurt diri sendiri.
3- Unstable confidence-- Rx: *unknown*.. pathetic rite... kenot explain why.


What bother me most now is my long-lost self-confidence n self-guidance. Next come my future. What do i want? What can i do now?

haiiii.... hope 2hv an answer 4myself soon.

enjoy life!!

Being a student n a "FAMA scholar", every move esp when it has 2do w $$ needs 2b careful. Once my physic lecturer told@inspired us that "One can hv entertainment at any time, but not education."

I have to agree that is very true & det's wat im experiencing now. Being a druggist myself, i finally hv an a/c that will 'grow' at the end of every month. & i can hv my own plan on wat 2do w them all. No plan 2go back 2 d school, so i guess it's time 2catch up w entertainment, comfort in life etc etc... Enjoy doing sth that's new 2me really. When if not now?? I might b too weak 2walk if i drag it later. *exaggerated statement that is*

So, off i go to book my tickets!! yeah yeah =) n never let go of any chance 2steal time 4 dis adults' "extracurricular activity" Hey that makes us young oso rite. (Rather than hiding ourselves in d shop n repeat...
'dis one, take one, 3 x a day before food ya... remember, it's BEFORE!! okay?' @
' nola uncle..v nv sell at such a low price wor... my price oledi like dis long ago.' @
'halo, it's me la, eh get me dis tablet, 5+1 one, and 10 jars of dis cream ok. urgent one har!!'

So now, i menghitung hari 4d day 2 arrive, n i can throw everything behind, concentrate on ENJOYING MYSELF!!

d_w_

What day is tdy? a day after mooncake festival.. a day that carries chinese culture. It's oso a Monday. Discovered sth fake n ugly...n it's like sth hit on my head. It's a true fact that i kenot stay at d same position all d time. New plan must b drafted b4 it's 2late. but wat can i do?? think... think........ go back n think....

i'm jz a little worker.... THINK!! THINK HARD!!!! y would i land myself in such position? i ciak ku li nia le.... frust frust really frustrated w it!!

Y can't i meet ppl who r sincere n straight 4ward? izit so hard 2meet ppl like det? i guess so... wat 2do? im jz a little worker..

haaaaaiiiiiii...... wat is my future le??

中秋节快乐

今天有人专程送来了2 粒月饼. 真的好窝心哦!! =) 手里捧着美丽大方的月饼盒, 心里既开心又感动. 嘻嘻.... 还真有点舍不得吃呢!

今天还算过得蛮充实的. 谈谈天, 说说笑, 偷偷懒, 补补货, 算算钱, 放工啦!! 明天不用做, 只需去露个面, "soso" 一下. 好轻松的一天!

中秋节快乐! !

Restarting....

Think i must hv catch some immunity against d so called challenges in life. Recovery period this time is faster than b4. Man... y not? been dragging it all dis while.. Shoulder start 2complaint it nv rest 4 too long time. Well mayb i can get ready to restart now. Look 4ward 2d upcoming challenges n let go of d past.

Fren very keen in looking 4 some1 2work w. Start 2wonder who is me in a yr's time. M i going 2stay at d current position 4 long? Getting sth extra in life might b a better idea 2preserve a good future. Life has change so much esp after multiple petrol price increase. Reading newspaper was once an activity 2c what happens out there.. yet, it's where v can know how ppl coping w inflation in d country. no shopping, no extra activity, no entertainment, n d list go on...

There's sth i realised tdy. Don't feel bad n hurt ourselves over d irresponsibility act of some1. Feel sorry 4them. That's their weakness, not ours. Why hurt ourselves over sth v don do?

Life challenges

It's a bad bad day. Problems @ so-called challenges det everyone face in life give me enough stress & headache. Being some1 who finds it hard to let go of some things even after multiple strategy 2counter its effect has finally back to d square one. Seems like everything is still d same. Prob still exist, life still as bad as it was, etc etc.. *some1 pls tell me how long 2go b4 everything is over*

Why m i so helpless at times n oways blinded by situation? Why m i still sitting here? Why can't I stand up n move on from my previous position? Why ppl seems 2hv d power of seeing through at the time when i hated them 2do that most? why dis... why det.... too many ys..... If only i hv d answers. n if only there really is a "restart" button in life.

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Freeeee.....

Had a not-so-busy n not-so-free working day. Boss not in. Me steal time 2read up d necessary 4a workshop tml. Few chat w my regular customer & frens make my day. Tomorrow will be another stress-free day. Can enjoy driving, loitering n at d same time b serious in d workshop. 2bad can't catch up w frens o else it will b wonderful.

Wonder whether snail mail still exist nowadays?? I hv a long overdue 1 ;P But it's good to know that the other party still care & concern. Anyway gotta do it fast!! Waiting too long is not sth worth doing.

Restart

Is there a restart button in life, when things aren't going d way v want it 2b? Hmm that seems impossible... Felt uneasy on seeing a graphic in the net last night, force me 2realise jz how weak i m. silly me...

Fren say it takes time 4 wound to heal. Agree.. been telling ppl d same thing everyday. Even how to clean it so det it heal faster. Butwhen things happens on myself my brain is so so blank. Discovered another weakness--> unable to self-prescribe!

Guess a reform in life is very crucial now. Yet lazyness n d spirit 2 reform is quite imbalance. Sth must b done 2 overcome lazyness. Laze in front of d screen is so enjoyable det i don mind glued to it in every non working minute.

Me..

Well since internet has become part of my life, so i might as well...get a blog 4myself. Wonder what's d feeling of expressing myself on a URL in d net. Good place to destress? *replace aromatherapy*
alternative to call up d unlucky some1 listening 2me grumbling? *save a lot on phone bills!!!*
Let's try it out!